Not ready

Okay... these few days, I have been trying to settle down. I met so many problems. School, health and now this. Maybe I should not even come back! :(

I finally decided to open the photobook he gave me before I flew off. I read it and I realized that I am still very sad about it. I thought I was okay already... Well I guess I am just not ready for any romantic relationship now. Just focus on work and stuff. Even after going for exchange and back, for some reason, I still feel the pain. No matter how hard I try.

What was the tipping point that made me not go back to him? I knew too much... that was the problem. As much as I wanted to go back, I could not. The fortune teller was right. People tell me all kinds of things and I know a lot of information, sometimes I can guess from certain conversations, sometimes I am good at peeking things (Yes it is a bad habit but I did not do it on purpose.).. and that can be a good and also bad thing.

So... okay. There is more to it, but I will not talk about it too much. I still have alot to unpack. Bloody hell. I hope I will have good health and happiness. *cross my fingers*

TBC...